I am Amazing as long as i believe

Sometimes without knowing people tend to abuse themselves mentally or physically. For example, i want to be like her! I am SO different. Why can't my hair be like hers and not jet black. I really like that but i don't think i can do it. They gave me the job i really wanted, i think i will pass cause i am just not good enough. But all you have to remember is this phrase, yes, you are not like other individuals. But that is what makes you special. Being abnormal does not mean that you are not amazing in fact being different gives you a greater advantages compared to others. You can shine brighter than normal. Me? I am beyond normal. I laugh too loud. Talk too much. Too easy going. But this is what makes me Vy Vyan. This is what gives me the courage to write this blog. I mean who would have the guts to tell you what is best to do and not afraid that it will backfire on me one day when I am at my lowest. All i am asking is for you to destroy the barrier. Do something that you will never think that you will do. Let yourself go and just be you. Because the moment you let go, you see the beauty in this world. Even the rain falling upon you might seem to be great. Life has its ups and down. It does not have a happy ending that is for sure but you can make every chapter of your life memorable and enjoyable so when your happy ending is not that happy after all, you know that hey, I did what i always wanted, I am good with this life. You have a dream to join a military? Or you dream of a job that forever helps others, putting others beyond yourself. Just do it. After all life is short. Its best when many more people can benefit from your life. Don't do this something because you have to. Do something that you want to. I will start a challenger. Look at yourself in the mirror. Tell yourself 5 things that you are not satisfied with yourself. Than slowly think what is good about it. Like me, I cry whenever i had enough. Its bad showing that i am fragile. But the good part is this characteristics makes me a happier person because after crying i feel much better. Or I am not the prettiest girl in class. But I am smarter than the prettiest girl in class. When this goes on and you are starting to find it difficult to find flaws in you. You had succeeded. If you can't find the positive side of your flaw, just ask your friend or parents to help you out. Believe me, the only reason you can't find it is because you are too hard on yourself. You guys can also visit this website http://www.aidforafrica.org/ All of you will feel lucky. Or read this book, "It happened on the way to war" by rye barcott

I am not a Chinese. I am a Malaysian

I am very proud to say I am a Malaysian. I will be called a Malaysian. Because i love my country and this is it. Sadly, i had seen many people especially around my age group boast about how amazing are other countries. Believe me, they love Aussie, The U.S.A and UK. They will know everything about the following place. But seriously, have you look into the matter? If you don't protect the country than who will. If the country is as bad as you had been saying, why are you still here? Malaysia is a democratic country. Which means people's decision really do matter. So we as citizens do not do our part, how will Malaysia improve. If the country is bad as you say the only reason i can think of is because we have people like you. I have friends that always say I will go to UK when there is a chance. Malaysia is bullshit and a racist country. We Chinese are bright. We will never have a chance because Malay will always have the opportunity. It just get into my nerve. Because certain country that you love is worst. They had only recently resolve part of the racist issues. In Malaysia, everyone have a chance as long as you are bright. If you had forgotten our history, it is a rule written and cannot be changed. The Malays had shared their country with all races. It is normal to have such a rule and it is what i call fair. When you are at your dream country you will never have the chance you think you will have. The Alpha group will always be on top eventhough you are better than them. This is the truth. Malaysia is my home. Its where I am born. Its where i feel amazing. After long trips to other country, the moment i step into Malaysia, I feel relief. Like I am back home as this is the truth. There are a lot of amazing facts about Malaysia. Everyone has a chance. I repeat EVERYONE. Look at Dato' Lim Goh Tong for example. He had never complained about racist issues. He was even given a chance to prove himself. And look at how successful he is. He was supported by all races and because he accepted, tolerated and was proud to be a Malaysian. People all around the world are running away from their country to live here. Even Ph.D holders. They had admitted that their country was a mess and the find Malaysia lovely and peaceful. All this are not a lie. I had seen and heard with my own eyes and ears. Malaysia is where the chance begin, savour the chance. I know people might ask, why are you planning to study in other country eventhough you love Malaysian that much. Simple, I want to get away from my parents grasp and I just want to see the world. But deep down I will always remember I am a Malaysian and Malaysia is my home. Even if one day i might not be living in Malaysia any more, Malaysia will always be my home. The reason i might leave Malaysia one day is will never be because I don't love Malaysia enough. Its because, I am dying to acheive something not only in my home but away from it. To show that Malaysians can do it too. Love your country. You only have one Ps. Sorry for the long wait, was really busy with my exams. :)