The Power of Make Up

"Ew... She is such a fake! Look at her make up!"

Sounds familiar? Does it really matter? I am totally fine with it! I don't wear it all the time, i just wear it occasionally. Like for a party, or a formal ball. That remark comes sadly from most males.

Look, if the girls with layers of make up is called fake, than what are you? Hiding behind huge layers of wax, hitting the gym all times until you get so buff you can hardly touch your shoulders with your hands. They say, i want internal beauty! But you secretly still go after girls with all the assets. Big boobs, lean body, pretty face. I am not saying all guys do that but sadly most. That is why there are girls being grouped as The Big NO. And here you are complaining about how fake this girl in front of you is with the layers of make up.

This is what i see. My point of view. I frankly do get disgusted when i see girls wearing super thick make up. But constantly remind myself, its something she needs to hold on. Something to boost up their confidence. And with that i think, why not? Its a normal thing for a girl to want to look pretty. I mean i would wanna look pretty but I am just too lazy to put those on my face and frankly i have enough confidence in a life time. 

Its hard to accept at first but frankly i prefer girls putting a few layers of make up to feel better bout herself than girls taking drugs, smoking, cutting herself in order to feel better. Make up is an art. For people who thinks make up is a fake, sorry but you are being hypocritical.

So here we are, your favourite celebs!

1) Katy Perry

 2) Taylor Swift

3) Megan Fox 

There are still make up on but its tonnes lesser than the picture after.

So how are your inner beauty thing kicking in? I do not encourage make up as a must, but if it is the first baby step for the females to gain confidence then why not? 

But for girls out there who survive on make up, it is also true that it is best to not depend on them. Feel good about yourself. Try putting lesser and lesser make up on your face. Its hard but after a few times, you won't even find make up necessary for a date.

There will a be a HELPing Hand Run in Bukit Damansara on the 7th of October. Maybe, let you inner beauty kick in and encourage yourself to join the charity run to help?

You can check the facebook page, http://www.facebook.com/HELPingHandsRun
or the event page, http://www.facebook.com/events/405355206178588/

The Life as A Helper

People might think, serving the community is easy. Well it is simply NOT! Especially when you are working with kids and TEENAGERS! "Help only mah! I also no larh! Very big meh?!", that's what Malaysians say, but seriously, what do they do? NOTHING!

The hardest phase in the entire process is getting attached to the kids. Especially if they even make an origami for you. Its a good thing, for sure but when its time to leave, the process is horrible. I mean i personally hate goodbyes. Especially those goodbyes that make you feel like you might never see this one person again. We will leave them one day. Or they might leave us! When a kid told us they might leave forever, ya, you are suppose to be happy for them but deep down thousands of questions will run through our mind, "Will he be ok?", "Will this happen again"? But mostly what I will feel is missing them, hoping not to not to not see them again. Suck! You have to be happy for them. All you can do is hug them and say take care, but its hard to let go. It breaks your heart. THE ENTIRE NIGHT you will be thinking, how will he be with his parents again? We have to fake our smile and put our worries aside. Just be happy for them! But how? Boundaries. Limits.

Teenagers, sigh, teenagers. I had and still am going through the teen phase. But its SO hard to make them even to open up even the tiniest bit. You will try and try and when you think you are there, POOF! The doors are closed up. And you have to start ALLLLL over again. Have to sit and just go through the maze trying a different path. When they are sad, its impossible to go through the maze. Its like all dead end. Took me around 3 weeks to get her start talking to me again. (Talking in the sense as joke talk) But it is worth it when she decides to smile for you at last. Trying to advise her without letting her know you are but hoping that she will get it on her own. How does my mum do this again?!

So ya, as you know, we will be having a run, HELPing Hand Run!  So do join. Support them. Support those adorable sweethearts. They will need it.

 

You can call me, Vy Vyan. I am free at all times. My number is 017-6237823

or you can visit our Facebook page! http://www.facebook.com/HELPingHandsRun?ref=stream

http://www.facebook.com/events/405355206178588/

Definition of Love

Well, when you read this, i am pretty sure the first person you ever thought of is your crush or your partner. Well, sadly, but gladly, my definition of love is TOTALLY different.

Well, most of you will think, "Vy Vyan, SHUT UP! I love him SO much. You won't understand." Maybe you are right. But let me tell you when was the first time i fell so deeply in love, it was not on any guy. He was just a day old.

I fell in love in the hospital. The first time i laid eyes on him, i melted. When i hold him in my arms, everything felt right. This baby was like nothing i had ever felt. I was in love. With his rusty blond hair and literally brown hazel eyes. When he held my finger tight. This is what i call love.

Being in love is all about sacrifice. Love don't mean the other half. Love is when you can do ANYTHING for this one person. You can even die for them. The feeling when he first learn to talk was the best feeling ever. When he called me, i swear to you i was over the moon. When he fell down and BAM, I freaked out and started crying. When he took the first step. When he went to a nursery. When he would scream his lungs out when you are 1 minute late for ANYTHING! When he walks into your room and started hogging your bed. When he drag my snowy on the floor and ran all over the house. When he peed on snowy on accident. When he peed on ME on accident. When he kiss me. When he hug me. When his first bad word was SHIT (my bad) And most importantly when he will just look at you and say, "Aunt, I love you soooooooooo much! I will give you a present cause you are a good girl." Though i know i will NEVER get the present he is talking about but seriously, that is more than enough. He is the present.

Its amazing what love can do to you. I would always want to be a better person. Someone he would be proud of. Someone he can talk about in front of his best friend Guo Zhen. Someone he would sing about (yes, he make up songs depending on the situation). Someone who he is proud of. Someone who mean a world to him.

All i want to prove is this, you think you are in love but you might not. Love is something that also happen between your family. Love is an amazing strength. Makes you want to be a better person so do love right. If you had broken up and thought you fall out of love, you had never. You still do have your family, your friends. Even a complete stranger will fall in love with you. So don't give up on love. Its already there.

Him starting to turn into a huge monster thanks to all those pampering.

Him with his I am so angry pose i asked him to make (He is not angry, its all an act)

Man cookie, that's what he call them, the reason why he love me more because i make magic in the kitchen

See I told you it was all an act!

Black, that is what he called charcoal bread that i have to drive all the way uptown because he LOVE it.

He and his fishy he insisted me on taking,

Him being a big brother! He never mind sharing the love. (ok FINE! he does)

Looking around at fishy in Aquaria

His all time best friend. He will literally pounce on me if I ignore his demand for his Booster and Pacifier.

His definition of monster.

He can be a Nightmare sometimes. He once run into a firecracker and I have to stand in front of him because he refused to move. There goes my shirt. Or just yesterday when i he do not let me do my business and kept on asking me questions when i was busy in the toilet. Or when he pooped RIGHT in front of me in the dinning room and YES i have to pick it up. Or when he demand to go to toilet to poop when you are eating. Or when he insist you to look in the toilet bowl at his poop to tell him he did a good job at pooping! But love is hard. So..... I found love. Have you?

Lend a HELPing Hand

They say picture says better than words. I have a confession to make, I love each and everyone of these kids from the bottom of my heart. I am trying not to because i know one day i will have to leave them and pursue what i want in my life. I mean each and every SASArians will have to leave them one day. But the least we can do is provide them with hope. Yes, hope.

You sit here reading my blog. You complain about how screwed up is your life. You complain about how your boyfriend treat you badly. You complain about not getting that Ipad you wanted. You complain how lucky is your friends having a sport car to drive. But STOP being so ignorant. Take a second and look into the world. Spend your time and think.

What all the kids in these orphanages want is their parents bringing them back home at least for the holiday. What all they want is the opportunity to lead a normal life like us. What all of them want is to know someone out there still care for them. And what we want? Fame. Fortune. Love. We have all these. Its just that we are too greedy and FULL of ourselves to realize this. We are horrible person. We are a horribly lucky person.

I am personally attached to this girl Angel. She would hold me hand and look up at me fluttering her long lashes asking me, "Sister Vy Vyan, why can't you stay with me?" Every single time she say this i just feel like taking her home. I want this 5 year old girl to be free from all the pain she is suffering. Every single time she says this i tear up and smile. I would ALWAYS sing to her just to make her feel better. I teach the teenage girls about boys. They would ask what I want to do and they said wow! If only i can be just like you. I, I mean we the SASArians keep thinking, why can't they be just like us? Than snap, Darren Timothy and Tim figured out why. They need a good environment. A good facility. Something that only can be settled by money.

So our 2 TimS came out with this brilliant idea to raise money for all the kids involved in our Teaching Programme. But we know deep down, how much we have to do. And it is our second semester, with university applications and stuff like that. They insisted to carry on, formed a committee and we are set to go.  Its just the beginning. We need a lot of help and support. A LOT OF HELP AND SUPPORT! But we are not chickening out. Its for them. We get none from the outcome. 

We are very different from most of the Runs. We are involved and had approached these children for months. We know what they need. We know how much they need. And we are trying to make a difference. It might be small but its not nothing.

So people, i wish, from the bottom of my heart that please do support. Please at least spend 3 hours of your time to just run for them. The more the better. Some of them will appear during the run. I know they will feel amazing, like WOW! These people are doing this for us! They care!

Yes, you definitely will help financially. But most importantly, you do help morally too. You always feel like you don't help enough? Well this is your chance. God is watching. Be the light in their life.

For further information, you can personally contact me,
Vy Vyan - 0176237823
Timothy  - 0102202375
Darren    - 0122128478

Or simply visit our facebook page.

http://www.facebook.com/events/405355206178588/

You Think You Love Him

Sometimes, yes, he is all you can think about. You think you are madly in love with one person. That is what all teen thinks nowadays. Only one out of ten teens' relationship are successful. But why?

Simply because we are immature. You feel lonely and suddenly this guy appear out of no where, giving you the attention you need and than you think, hey maybe i like him. And than you"fall in love" for this guy. But seriously is that love or are you just curious? Is that love or you just need this guy to fill in the space. I am very sure almost 100% of the people here will think, this is love. Don't doubt us. We are old enough to make our own decision. This is what i call denial. Not everyone can accept the fact that they are desperate. Yes, everyone is Desperado, especially when they are going through the downs. I admit that at times i feel like nothing i working out and suddenly this guy appear out of nowhere i might think hey, i think he is a fine one. That is when everyone of you have to think properly and clearly, do you seriously like this guy?

Most girls will just jump into conclusion like, he is there for me. He MUST be the one. No doubt it applies on certain occasions but as a teen, i don't think so it is applicable. Because most guys, they are nice to you because they have other intentions. They are not nice to you because you are a sad individual. Some guys actually think that, "Hey, she is sad, this is my chance to win her over". Get it? You are suppose to look for these type of guys, " Hey, she is sad, I must be there for her, she needs me". 

Love is a try and error thing. People tend to think, every relationship works out. It don't. Sadly there is never happy endings to this type of thing. Relationships always end with pain. Even if you get married, your other half might just leave you for God. But its the feeling of living your life with another person. To have someone to depend on. That is the key to everything.

Relationship is all about tolerance. Both parties MUST let down their ego. And DO NOT spam twitter or whatever social network with pictures with both of you. Its ok if there are a few appropriate ones. But somethings are better to keep it between yourself. Instead of telling the world how much you love him or her, why don't you just whisper into their ears about how much you love them. Because, frankly, the world don't really care. Make sure that you don't spend all your time with this person and make sure you still have ample of time with your friends. That is the mistake done by us. We tend to forget about our friends. If the relationship fail, the only thing you have on your back is your amigos. SO NEVER FORGET YOUR FRIENDS. Sometimes just have some bff time without your boyfriend. If your boyfriend is in the same group, than let him join his bro's for some crazy thing and don't chock them with too much sweetness. Friends, they just want to know that you are still there. 

The main thing is getting the right or close to right partner. This is the trickiest part. People always say follow your heart. Some people say be rational in order to not choose the wrong one. I say use both your heart and brain in this. First, let the heart kick in. If this guy makes you feel all soft and buttery why not? Than wait for a few months whether is it still a crush. This is the time the brain kicks in asking you to wait and see whether is this real or its merely a crush. At the same time, you can see whether whatever the guy is doing bore you or make you go crazier for him. Like i like kid, if i see my crush getting very well along with kid everything will be right. So ya, if the feeling is so strong, than hint the guy or make your first move. Don't BUG the guy. If he don't reply any of your actions, its clear that he is not into you. Than instead of making a fool out of yourself, back off. Some girls, they are a bit over crazy, they will continue winning the guy over. Depending on your mentality. Because, i don't think a girl should go after a guy in any cause. It lowers your reputation and like it or not that boy will not respect you. The brain here must do the thinking and analysis. Whether is he the right one. His attitude. His personality. Because there are girls who date drug addict. This is when their brain do not kick in. Just be yourself, if the guy do not accept you for who you are than why date him?

NEVER date a guy who makes you cry or sad. Try dating before getting into anything serious to see how it goes aka trial period. NEVER date a guy who makes you feel bad if yourself. NEVER date a guy who tried lowering your self-esteem just to boost theirs. NEVER date guys who are still stuck in the past.

It is important to remember not all relationships work out. Its all about trial and error. And its best to forgive and forget your failed relationship. Sure it takes time but forgiving is the key for a new successful relationship.

OK now i sound like a love guru. But seriously, its all about trial and error. Take care and sorry for the long wait. Was really really really busy. FML. My friend had continuously asked me to write about this so here it is. :)

An Evil World Out There

For the first time, i took one long day to think of how do i write this blog. It is pretty hard to admit this world we live in is almost hopeless. Gone. Poof. It took me long to realize that I am living in ignorance. There is so much pain happening in the world and I am here having road rage screaming at the car, literally.

So what made me write this? Why didn't i write it before this? This is because I live in denial and again, ignorance. Until i visited this orphanage one day and i stared at these kids thinking, I am really lucky. I am VERY lucky. On the way back i keep thinking, how could they? I got so attached to them in lesser than an hour, and suddenly i just want to do SO much MORE! Especially this beautiful girl I am in charge of. Vivian. The moment i accidentally chosen her i felt this link. It just bonded. Suddenly I tell myself, i will do anything to help this girl. She is very bright. Really beautiful and she is an Indian. And i had just proven that I ain't a racist. Anyways, I feel like giving her all the love I can give. I hugged most of the kids there before leaving and screaming out ' I Love You ' before i leave. When i hop in my car and look at all of them waving as i leave i teared up. I curse their parents in my heart. In fact i hate them. All i thought was how could they do this to their kids. I keep thinking about a perfect excuses for them but my heart keep kicking in and say, that is not an excuse, EVEN NOW

And than my friend kept on telling me, Vy Vyan, that is why we are here. The most horrible thing that could destroy this entire world ever existed is HUMAN. We kill. We destroy each other. We discriminate each other. We hurt each other. But seriously why? Why can't we leave in peace? Why can't we make this world a better place? There are people saying we are doing this to make this world a better place. But I don't see a difference. I see it only gets worst. It just don't make sense. They seek peace by destroying peace. Why can people be so blind. I mean i respect all political parties. Their main thing is to make this world a better place. But there are people out there having this perception that I have to destroy to make this a better place scares me a lot.

As for the kids, I can't entirely blame their parents. They might have their problems that they think its best to leave their kids behind for a better future. I mean a dim light is better than vivid black walls right? But I just can't help thinking, than why can't you prevent having this children if you know that you have no abilities to bring them up? They have siblings in the orphanage. SIBLINGS! I MEAN SERIOUSLY? They seriously think they can afford the second kid when they can't even afford the first?

The main point is, have protected sex. Even better still don't have it until you are ready to bare the consequences. Don't let hedonism kick in and take over your mind. Hedonistic kills most times and ruin not only your future but also the people around you. Use your brain than your heart. Evaluate everything you think with you brain. Don't let your heart do the thinking! JUST DON'T! It never work that way.

Take care. Just seriously, try to make this world a better place by starting from yourself. Think of what i say, said and will be forever saying.

Different Perfection

Everyone is perfect in this world. The problem with everyone is just they are not satisfy with themselves and also other people. So every difference is a perfection and its true. Everyone ask me this question. Vy Vyan, how do you do it? I mean seriously, i fell into a hole and i was laughing it out. I might seem mental but to me it just seem funny. And with that people assume that i have no problems on my own. Or maybe all problems i face are petty and i solve it in a blink of an eye.

What happen if i tell you no. I just push it away and find a way to release the thing inside me with the things that i do. Like i like laughing a lot so i laugh at almost everything. Even if i don't feel like it i still force myself to because i know i will feel better after that. Or i start transferring my feeling onto the black and white keys. Yap, my piano. Maybe its because its the only thing i am good at and the best thing is i have 2 of this beauty and each one is used for different situations. Like when i feel sad, i will use the one in the closed up room and start hitting on the keys and when i feel like there is something inside me that i have to get out of me (good or bad) and i don't know what there is when my beauty, an upright grand, comes in handy. It helps because every song you play tells a story. And you are listening to your own story, suddenly you feel better and you magically comes up with a new song, well at least it happens to me. Or i have a soft part towards my softie, i tend to hug them real tight and the familiar scent will rush through your nose and you will feel better. 

It depends on who you are. Everyone has their own way to let it out, but cutting yourself and picking on others is definitely not the way. My different perfection is being able to laugh at everything even my own mistakes AND of cause being able to joke about anything. Laughter is like a symphony that rushes through my ears and soothes my throat than slowly put my heart in peace. 

So hottest question, is there something behind the smile, well yes, in fact it is under control. There is always something behind every smile its just depending how you control it. Well my daily way to make myself feel better is telling myself, there is somewhere out there, someone will trade anything for my life. There is someone going through worst problem than breaking up with your boyfriend / girlfriend. Or there is a bigger problem than the crush not liking you back. Think about that, and suddenly you will feel stupid for getting sad over stuff like that. Tell yourself, I am VERY lucky and list the worst that could happen from that situation. 

And since there is a lot of my friends trying to hook me up with someone or either guessing that who is that special someone, i would just like to take this opportunity to make things very clear. Being single is fine. I am not looking into any relationships. I have no one in mind. As much as i seem crazy bout girls, those are all JOKES. I am fine being single, and being single does not mean you are lonely. Even if it does, being lonely is not a sin, and when you are alone, you get to set things right. SO i am really fine guys, no need to hook me up. Thanks anyways :)